A Day In the Life Of...

A day in the life of a regular person. How boring right? I mean, isn't drama and uncertainty what makes the world go round? Well I do try and avoid drama in all of its many forms. And I would like to think that in most ways I accomplish my task of avoiding it. I just need to avoid my trigger people. No names need to be mentioned, because I am not sure that this site is entirely secure. I guess what it comes down to, is resilience. Can I last another year here and can I focus only on the good in my life? I am hoping that I can focus only on the positive sides of things and not on the negative. I guess a positive is that soon I will be getting to spend more time with Chris.
I am really looking forward to it, because in less than a month Chris is graduating from school with his associates degree, and he thinks it will be some time before he gets his bachelors. I can't begin to describe how excited I am to have my husband back. It's been two long years of missing him everyday he has been at school and now that it is almost over. Having him around is one of the nicest things about my life. I miss just hanging out with him and enjoying each others company. I am really looking forward to finishing up my associates degree sometime soon as well. It sure has taken us a long time, but I think it has been worth it.
I am hoping that I can put my main focus, not on a job that I am not planning on keeping, but on my education that has been put on hold long enough. I never realized how much I enjoy learning and how much I want to be a teacher so I can get my summers off. I know, purely selfish, but at least I can admit it.
Have a nice summer!

The Missing Me

So it has been a roller coaster ride this past July. First, the 4th weekend which was really stressful at work but I got past it. Then Rachel came down and hung out with us in Vegas. Well, for any of you who know me, you know that I have a tendency lately to get really stressed and freak out a little. Most of you also know that I have alot of stomach problems. Finally, I listened to the advice of my mom and went to see my doctors. That and the fact that I missed an important work trip because I was freaking out before my flight. So I went to my doctor and he diagnosed me with anxiety and some kind of anxiety depression. He also gave me samples of a medicine that he had me on about a year ago for my stomach. It prevents acid which can cause ulcers. So I have some new medicine that I am trying out. My biggest fear when going to the doctor was that he would tell me it was all in my head and that all I really needed to do was exercise. I know I need to, but when I am stressed all day at work, I am always exhausted when I get home so I thought that it would be a vicious cycle. I was very heartened to learn that he had a battle plan for me. He gave me something to help with the anxiety and whatever the depression was ( I can't remember the name he gave it.) And my favorite heartburn medication.

It was like a whole new life. I haven't felt this good in ages. I can eat something and not get sick two minutes later. I can go out in public and not stress out about the bathroom locations. I hadn't realized how unhappy I had really become in the last couple of months. It has alot to do with work and stress. I have a certain trigger person who can send me from happy to pissed in about ten seconds and I hadn't realized how badly it was until, I had something to help me deal with them. I just want to thank everyone who was so supportive when I was having health problems, and not making me feel guilty for cancelling stuff and being a grump. My only regret was waiting so long to see a doctor and have someone help me through it all. For those of you having a stressful time these days, I urge you to get help from somewhere. Don't let it get to the point of depression and ulcers!! I hope that everyone has an awesome August!!