Happy Birthday Chris!!

Happy Birthday Chris!! He is now 29 and counting down the days til he’s thirty. Not really. When I asked him about turning the big 3 0 next year, he shrugged. So apparently no big deal for men. It makes things extremely difficult to tease him about if he doesn’t have a problem with something in the first place! Well, we went out to Red Lobster, which was awesome, and rented a movie, because I can’t sit through one in the theater. I got him the Dark Knight and some comic book stuff. I think he is going to see a movie today while I am at work and it’s his day off. I don’t mind though, cause I feel bad that I can’t sit through a movie without getting up and going to the bathroom every 45 minutes. But here is the picture of the cake that I made for him. He wanted a layer cake, and I thought I had the pans for it, but I couldn’t find it. So I made a bunt cake and then just frosted it. I think it turned out great and it tasted really yummy. And just for the record, Chris is the best husband anybody could ask for=) Love ya!

Besides the birthday, we had a pretty boring weekend. We missed the family potluck again, and I was kinda upset about it. Just sometimes, I can’t control how the pregnancy is going to affect me and one minute I am feeling super and twenty minutes later, I feel like crap. A bunch of my cousins were down and my other cousin was introducing his fiancé to the family and I missed it. I guess it could be worse, but I hate missing important family things.

So I am wearing a stupid wrist brace to try and control my carpel tunnel problem in my wrist. It wasn’t so bad a couple of weeks ago, but lately I can hardly type or write stuff down. I hate wearing the brace because it limits my wrist movement and all I want to do it move my wrist!! It’s like as soon as I can’t do something, I need to do it. Oh well, 8 weeks officially before Aubry gets here so not much longer. I am still super nervous about everything, but I will have lots of help when she gets here. But everyone cross your fingers that Chris will find a job in Boise soon so we can move and maybe buy a house in the near future. It’s so weird, wanting to buy a house and settle down. I still feel a little bit immature about it all. But all I know is that I want a house so I can plant a garden. I want to grow useless vegetables that I really don’t like to eat, but are good for me. Like turnips and beets. Silly I know, but it’s just one of those weird things that I really want.

A Time to Love and Laugh...

With the arrival of baby almost upon us, things are slowly coming together. Although my house still isn't clean at all, I have hope for the near future. In fact, during my bath, I starting cleaning up my tub. I am hoping to get the second bedroom at least a little more organized in the coming weeks. Everytime I go in there, I organize just a little bit. Some things are more important than a clean house. Like spending time with Chris. I mean, we are always home together, we don't have other obligations right now, but sometimes it seems like we are both in the same room, but not in the same space. That's why lately, we have been making more of an effort to just be together. Even if we are both occupied with something, like reading or the computer, every couple of minutes we acknowledge each others presence. And sometimes, we just lay in bed and talk about the silliest things that have nothing to do with anything. Like what will happen when our cats finally die, will they become rugs or will we have them stuffed. Just nonsense like that=)
I am certainly going to miss all of the one on one time we have with each other. It doesn't seem fair that I spent so much time trying to find someone to spend the rest of my life with, that I won't be able to just be with them for much longer. Pretty soon, we will have another life entwined with ours and the something special that we have with each other, will change. I am not saying that's good or bad, I just know I will miss the time when it is just us. I am afraid that he will feel neglected when the baby comes, or that I will get so caught up that I forget that I am not just a mom, but someone's wife and best friend as well. How easy it will be to lose touch with each other. I don't want that to happen. For one thing, the whole pregnancy is his fault to begin with (that's my story and I'm sticking to it=) and another thing is that we can't put our marriage on hold to raise kids and then expect to pick up everything to be together when the kids finally leave. I don't want to be that couple who once the kids leave the house, suddenly have nothing in common with each other. *Shudder* That picture freaks me out more that anything.
I know that having kids is the next great adventure, but if there is one thing I have learned, is that there are exceptions to every rule and nobody is exactly the same. So while I look forward to raising and teaching a new baby everything I know about books and video games, I look back with longing for the times just spent with Chris. Shopping at 1 am because we forgot milk, or going to pick up some random item at all hours of the night. Or just wondering around at the mall together, wondering how places like the Hello Kitty store stay in business.
Maybe I wasn't ready to start having kids yet, but it looks like I really don't get a choice in the matter now. Somehow, this is all someone else's fault and if things fall apart, rest assured "somebody" will be getting a very strongly worded letter from me=) But for all of you young parents our there, don't forget that there is a reason you have kids and don't forget to spend and devote a little focus to that special reason who snores every night next to you=)

So Many Things...

Wow, another week, another pound or two. Officially, I am at 31 weeks and counting. Still fit into my work pants and honestly, I don't really look pregnant. Just overweight. I can't tell if that is a good or bad thing at this point. My body is still doing some crazy things. Like hurting me everytime I try and sit or stand up. And sometimes, my leg just gives out. Kinda weird, but apparently thats okay. My biggest worry at this point, is how dirty my house is. I just can't seem to find the energy to clean it. I am hoping that I can pay my little sister to come over and help motivate me. I just need someone with my same cleaning ability to help me. Then, maybe I will feel a little less stressed about everything. I just want to set up the babies room and get everything organized before hand. I am terrified that she will come early and I will be caught unaware. Kelly is telling me that things really weren't that bad and that everything will be fine. Cross your fingers for me. Everything seems fine today except she is kicking me every few minutes to make a point. Hopefully, at my doctors appointment tomorrow, they will reassure me that everything is normal. And maybe pity my allergies and give me something a little stronger to deal with them.
Oh I passed my glucose test so I don't have gestational diabetes. Hooray for small miracles.

My F Bomb

I did it again. I dropped the F bomb in a fit of anger. Most of you who know me pretty well, know that I have always had trouble with swearing. Especially when I am pissed. Well currently my problem, is that all of the stupid mulberry trees are blooming and for some reason, 75 degrees and rising is okay in an office. No, it's really not. But since I am pregnant, apparently that means my opinion doesn't count because I will naturally be hotter when I am with child. Well, screw that. Anyone can tell you, that I am always hot, pregnant or not! So why should my opinion matter less? I am so frustrated about it. I have to wait until someone else mentions that they are hot, which no one does, before something happens. Normally, I don't get this much bent out of shape about it, but I can't run my fan because I already can't breathe from the damn pollen, that having a fan under my desk to blow the dust in my face is making me miserable. So here I sit, hot, sweaty and unable to breathe. You wonder why I might be a little testy.

Apparently it is only going to get worse. Which is bad for people who might get in my way. I am trying so hard to be a better person, more patient and understanding, because I honestly feel that is my hardest problem. Being patient. And then I worry about having a small child who demands my patience and me falling way below the mark. I hope that in the coming months, when Vegas slowly descends closer to Hell, that everyone can be a little patient with me and I get hotter, fatter and more cranky. But still, could the pollen here be any worse?

Finances

Just a reminder to everyone. It's tax season and along with reconciling your taxes and expenses I think it is also that time of year to check your credit score and information with Experian or any of the other two Credit Companies. They do offer a free score I believe once a year or you can purchase a package and look at it more often. There is a law in place that ensures you a yearly free report so now is a good time to take a look. Especially with the economy, it is important to know and understand your score and make sure that you are not a victim of identity theft. I checked mine, and it was really easy. So please check and make sure that your identity and credit score are safe, as well as let this be information to use in this bad economy. Have a great day!