The Bear Suit

So I am posting the cutest thing I have ever seen. We are going camping the first week in August with the Godfrey clan. The camp site is in Montana so we were worried about Aubry being cold at night. The other day we went out shopping for a jacket and some pajamas for her. Babies R' Us had a sale going on so we looked at the fleece pajamas. They have a brown one and it had a hood. I thought this would be good cause it wouldn't show dirt as much. It is a little bear suit and Aubry is the cutest dang thing in it. So enjoy Aubry's new little bear suit=)

Sleep Deprived

Ren and Krysta were visiting this week.

She was so much fun and Aubry loved her.

Classic Aubry look. Wide-eyed and smirking.

I leaned her up in my chair and this is how she settled.

Chris was trying to get her to sleep. Him first.

Yeah, I know that when you have kids you no longer sleep good. But what I didn't realize is that Patience feeds off of sleep. So when I have no sleep, I have no patience. And patience is essential for raising kids. I hate feeling grumpy and irritable, especially towards poor Aubry who isn't at fault. I also hate snapping at poor Chris, who is just an innocent bystander, mostly. Hopefully, this weekend when we are in Boise and Idaho Falls to visit family, I can get a better nights sleep and be a little calmer. Then in about another week, we get to go camping with the Godfrey clan. I am so excited for that. I have been waiting for 3 years to get to go back again. Finally, circumstances are favoring us and we can go. We bought Aubry some warm pajamas and a jacket today, because we are camping in Montana.

Aubry is still not sleeping the best. She likes to sleep on me, but I have stuff to do and can't hold her all the time. When I set her down she usually wakes up and then fusses. And it seems that when she falls asleep laying down she doesn't sleep as long. Grrrgh. Hopefully, we can make sleeping on her own a routine shortly. I don't want to be a glorified mattress for the next year.

Well, I have a bet going with my brother in law Neil. They weight their new baby on Friday at 8 pounds 1 Ounce and if she is bigger than Aubry, who gets weighed tomorrow, then Neil owes me Coldstone. But if Aubry is bigger, then I owe him Coldstone. Wish me and Aubry luck!!!

The New Daddy

I have to tell you this story. It was so cute and sweet, it made me fall in love with my husband all over again. Sometimes Aubry cries and we don't know why. All part of raising kids, I suppose. Well at times, both me and Chris can become rather frustrated. Wishing to rid ourselves of an uphappy child (returning her to the hospital is not an option apparently=). But in those not so rare instances now, where she is smiley and happy, we find ourselves loving her and remarking about how freakin' cute she really is.

The other day I had Aubry asleep on the couch, laying there all cute like. Chris comes in and observes her for a moment, always checking to make sure she is breathing (it's cute that he worries=). When he looked at me and said, "Sometimes I get so frustrated with her, but then when I see her just sleeping there looking cute, I can't be mad at her at all." It was so cute the way he said it. I, of course, knew that as she gets older he will most likely always be a push over, cause she is in fact a, daddy's girl=) I love them both and hope that they will always be close.

New Items

There hasn't really been that much going on lately. We blessed Aubry on Sunday and that was really nice. She looked really cute in her blessing dress that Carol made her and she didn't even cry alot when it was happening. Lately we have been trying to get her to sleep in her crib and me sleep in my bed. It has been kinda hard cause she doesn't seem to sleep that well. Suggestions on how to get her to sleep soundly would be appreciated. I went to the doctor on Monday because my wrist has been bothering me since I was pregnant and it turns out I have tendinitis. I have to have physical therapy because I am breastfeeding. Not really that fun. Next week I am going to moapa and meeting Kelly hopefully so we can finally have our daughters meet. Chayse is almost two months older than Aubry which seems like alot now, but really isn't that far apart. Kelly and I are almost a year apart.

My favorite grocery store is closing. The Vons next to our apartment complex was sold or is going out of business or something. I am so mad!! It was so nice having it there and now we have to go to Walmart or Smith's. There really isn't another close grocery store that I like. I actually hate all the other ones. Even in Spokane, I would go to Safeway, which is the same thing, more than any other store.

Well, Aubry has been asleep for almost a half hour so I am going to take a nap finally and hope that she sleeps for a couple more hours.

New Photos

My favorite drunken sailor look.

This was after our first sunday back at church. It was kinda hard.

Carol took this one. I love it!

I love this picture.



Here are some new photos of Aubry. We are having so much fun with Grandma Godfrey down visiting and helping out. In fact, she is motivating Chris to clean his computer area. I think he listens to his mom more than me=) Grandpa Godfrey (Paul) is flying in tomorrow night and then we are blessing Aubry on Sunday the 5th. She has the cutest blessing dress that Carol made for her. I will post some pictures of her in that on Monday next week.

One Month

So Aubry is officially one month old two days ago. We went to the doctor on Monday and she weighed in at 6 pounds and 5 ounces. That is up from two weeks ago at 5 pounds. She is eating really well and I am super excited that she is putting on weight. She is still in the lower 5 percentile for everything, but that is fine as long as she has a normal growth rate. She is already more aware and is starting to focus and just look around without fussing. Grandma Godfrey bought us a sling and I am super excited to try it out. We also finally found a stroller that is cheap and versatile for us. Unfortunately, it only comes in one color. Brown and Pink. Which is fine I guess, but it clashes with our car seat which is blue and silver. Oh well. We will be picking it up next week.

My incision site is healing pretty well. I can lay down and get up now, but it still hurts. And I can't wait til I get the go ahead to swim and exercise. I want to lose all sorts of weight and fit into my pants again. I lost a ton of weight, but the stretching was in all the wrong places and my pants are fitting right. I go in for my appointment in about a week and a half. I can't wait to go swimming!!

We are going to the family reunion in August hopefully, and I can't wait. We are thinking about just flying up to Billings and driving down with the in laws. Apparently Allegieant Air now has a non stop flight to Billings for about 60 bucks a person. Totally awesome. That means it is cheaper to fly now instead of driving. I wish they had that flight last year when we visited. Stupid people. Well, we are just relaxing here, taking our time to do stuff. I like being a stay at home mom. I might make it permanent=)

Four Weeks and Counting...

Wow. What a crazy ride so far. Aubry is four weeks old tomorrow and I can't believe it. It seems like longer. Probably cause I am running on no sleep and limited energy. So far I have gone to two baby showers with her and thankfully she has been awesome for both of them. Lara's was totally crazy, what with all of the babies and pregnant woman. My baby was the smallest out of everyone. Poor thing. She is getting pretty long, but we will see how much weight she has put on come Monday. My mom in law is coming on Sunday, thank goodness. I still need some help and am so lucky to have so much support. What with Chris staying home for the first two weeks, then my mom coming for a week. I had this week on my own, and feel terribly lucky that Chris comes home so early in the day. Chris's mom will be staying for two weeks and I am so excited. Hopefully, by the time everyone is done visiting, I will have more of a handle and a routine with Aubry. I wish she would take her pacifier easier, it would make my life easier. We need to get a stroller, because she really likes to cruise in the car and to be carried around. So I thought that a stroller would be good cause then I could get some exercise and still spare my arms.

She doesn't seem to sleep that often and when she does, I have a hard time sleeping. I want to do stuff while she is sleeping, but I desperately need to some sleep of my own. I am looking forward to a steadier routine as she gets older, and lord, bless me with patience!!

PS I gave Aubry a bath on Monday, her first one that she didn't scream the whole time!! But today she was pissed about it=)

Two Weeks and Counting

She is the smallest one in the house!!

So Aubry is two weeks and one day old today. It has been an interesting ride so far. Chris finally had to go back to work and my mom is staying with us for a week. I miss Chris but it is nice to have my mom here to help. She did my dishes which was really awesome and she helped me get out and about to pick up some groceries. We actually had a real dinner thanks to her. I haven't made dinner in a while and it was nice to have a homemade meal. My incision site still hurts which is very annoying. I thought for sure I would be feeling better by now, but they keep reminding me that in addition to having a baby, I did have major surgery. I can drive now, but I still can't pick up anything heavy. Not til next week. I tried laying down to take a nap with Chris the other day, and when I woke up, I couldn't walk. My legs and back were locked up and I couldn't twist my body because of my incision. It was the first time in two weeks that I have tried laying down to sleep. I mostly just sleep in the recliner in the living room with Aubry. I would like to sleep in the bedroom with Chris, but I am afraid that his sleep will get interrupted with the baby. We will work something out I am sure.


Well Aubry ended up being 5 pounds at her doctors appointment yesterday, which was awesome. She was 4 pounds and 10 ounces the last time and the doctor only expected her to gain about half of what she gained. She was pretty happy about it. I told her it was because Aubry refused to stop nursing for two hours. I was sore. The doctor said that she was using me for a human pacifier and that I should feed for 15 to 20 minutes on each breast and then give her a pacifier if she fusses. I was nervous about doing that because I was sure she was still hungry. But most babies only eat about 1 to 2 ounces in a feeding and so they get the majority of their meal in the first 15 minutes of eating. Well, I tried that, and it was amazing. Aubry ate for about a half hour then, I gave her a pacifier and she was totally fine!! I feel like I have an easy baby because all of the experiments that I have tried, she has responded to really well. Like we kept her up a little bit during the day so she will sleep at night, and she is doing fine.


She was a little fussy this morning, but I think she had a stomach ache. Which she relieved all over me when we were out shopping. She exploded her diaper on my pants and in my mom's car. She does it cause she loves me I guess. It was an interesting experience. She likes to sleep on her stomach and I know that is bad, according to the books. But my mom said that when she was having babies, that they said to make them sleep on their stomachs and not on their backs. They keep changing the official guidelines. Mostly, Aubry sleeps on me. I lay her on my chest to burp her, and she falls asleep, then I fall asleep in the chair. Is that bad? It is so special to me, cause she is so close and I can feel her breathing with me. I know she has to sleep in her crib eventually, but I worry so much about her. Well, she is lots of fun, she sneezes super cute and she gets the hiccups all the time.


After my mom leaves, I get her to myself for almost two weeks before I get more help. We will see how I do without my mom and Chris here all the time. I am nervous, but hopefully Aubry will continue to be a cute, nice, adorable baby.

One Week

So Aubry is one week old today. I can't believe it. I feel like I haven't slept this entire week. I got my staples out today, that hurt really bad. Then we took Aubry to the doctor for a check up and she is fine. She has birth marks on her back which I hadn't noticed. We go back next week, and hopefully she has put on weight by then. She is down to 4 pounds 10 ounces and she really can't afford to lose any more!! It has me pretty worried even though everyone says that normal. If she weighed more it would seem more normal. Everything is going pretty good though. Breastfeeding was a challenge at first. But I think I am getting the hang of it. Plus, it's free. And so far I have lost about 20 pounds from last week! I know that seems like alotbut I still have a ways to go before all of the baby weight is gone. Then I can concentrate on losing more weight. I still have 5 weeks to go before I can go swimming and exercise!!

I am still so tired all of the time. But I guess that is normal too. I think next week I will pump some milk and then sleep in and have Chris feed her or something=) Well, that is the update so far, nothing too exciting planned for next week. Just another check up and Chris goes back to work=( My mom will be down to visit, so thats nice. It was just nice hanging out with the hubby and bonding as a family. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I don't have to go back to work for a long while, if I have to go back at all. I can't imagine leaving Aubry with someone else at this point. Well here are some more pictures of Aubry. Enjoy!!

Aubry Ann Godfrey

Chris cut the cord. No pictures of me getting cut open. Thank Goodness.

Tiny little thing. Hopefully, she gains some weight.

She wasn't crying. They had to do all sorts of things to hear some noise. She's good now though.

We finally made it home.

She was mad I think.

Here she is. 5 Pounds 2 Ounces and 18 Inches of pure sunshine. Already she has a personality. She likes to roll her eyes at me when she is breastfeeding=) No pictures of me, but that is because I am more swollen now, than the entire pregnancy, and I have a huge rash on my face. They mixed some morphine in with my spinal tap and I itched like crazy for about 2 days. I rubbed my face raw. It wasn't pleasant looking. Then I stressed out a cold sore, so I look like the swamp thing. But there will be more pictures once we get more settled at home.

Less than 48hrs...

The car seat and some things from work baby showers.
The bassinet that Kelly gave us. With the Grandma blankets inside

Yeah, we need to move the computer, but the desk can be a changing table.

These cute storage units Amelia helped us pick out. Full of clothes.

So I have less than 48 hours before I "give birth". Technically, I will be having surgery, but the result is the same. Soon our whole lives will be turned upside down and focused on a small person that we have never met before. Her name, in case you were wondering, is supposed to be Aubry Ann Godfrey. Krysta brought up a good point about what happens if we meet her and that name doesn't fit. I can be flexible, but I am pretty sure Aubry will fit. It had better, cause I don't have a backup name picked out. I can't even think about a different name, I draw a blank. Our house is semi clean. As clean as it is going to get. Chris is taking two weeks off to be with me and the baby, so hopefully we can get even more stuff done. After Chris goes back to work, my mom is going to stay with us for a bit, and then Chris's mom is coming down. I think it is a good flow this way. That way I won't have anyone overlapping, plus Chris can spend some quality bonding time with the baby. I am so excited that he is able to take so much time off to be with me. It will be so hard to see him go back to work. But the good news is that he gets off so stinking early that we can hang out all afternoon as a family!!

A family. That is so weird to me. I mean, we were obviously a family before the baby, but now with a baby we are a family unit, not just married. I can't imagine being responsible for another human being, not to mention their feeding machine. I am particularly nervous about breastfeeding because I want to do it exclusively really bad, that I am afraid because I want it so bad, that something will go wrong. Fortunately, I will be at the hospital for at least two days, with nice nurses and lactation specialists, that I can hopefully get the trick in before I have to leave. And if I need help, there are tons of relatives that I can call on to help me. Aunt Beth is on my speed dial for back-up, not to mention my mom and sisters.

I promised to post some pictures of the babies room so here they are. Not as coordinated as Lara's but, I have my own style. You can see the cute blankets that my mom and mom in law made for her. We have a ton of blankets. Which will be a good think when we move to Idaho. It looks like we will be staying til our lease is up at the beginning of October before we move. I think we can manage to move mid September so cross your fingers. That way we beat the worst of the summer heat down here, and move before the big winters they have up there.

Well, I will hopefully get a chance to blog and post pictures in the hospital as I will be there for awhile. We will let everyone know how it is going Thursday afternoon after she is born.

One Week....

Just an update. I have pretty much let everyone know already that at this point in the pregnancy, Aubry has decided that she would rather be sitting up instead of facing down like she is supposed to. So, because she is breech, the doctor has scheduled me for a C-Section a week from today. Kinda lame. I was actually looking forward to the surprise of the baby and going natural. I was disappointed, but the doctor said that she doesn’t have any room to move around and that she won’t flip. But she is about 6 ½ pounds at this point, which is a good weight. So, May 20th, I will go in and get a spinal tap and get cut open, then be on my way. From what everyone is telling me, a planned C-Section is way easier to recover from than an emergency C-Section that happens after hours of labor. We will see I guess. I’ll let everyone know how it goes. I am not sure what will happen after the C-Section or how I will be feeling. I didn’t read or study up on the C-Section because I honestly didn’t think I would be getting one. I mean, after all of the tests and knowing that she was fine, I didn’t even consider that she wouldn’t be positioned correctly. Her head is right under my ribs, which is probably why I am out of breath all of the time.

Other than the bad positioning of the baby, things are looking well. I need to clean my kitchen like there’s no tomorrow still, but our house is basically baby ready. I am even packed for the hospital. Me and Chris talked about it, and though we are sad that we don’t get to experience the rush of a regular delivery, we are glad to know when she is coming. I like to be prepared for stuff and it helps to know. We washed all of her clothes and we washed the bedding in her bassinet. Now we just need to keep the kittens from playing in her room. They like to play in her bed when we are in her room, so we have been trying to keep them from getting their fur everywhere. We finally found our camera (under the bed) and so now I can take some pictures and post them of her room. It’s not fancy at all, but I really like it.

I have one week left to act like a kid myself, then I have to grow up=)

The End Is Near...

Well, I am a little behind on my blog. A lot has happened in the last two weeks. I had a baby shower, we cleaned our house, and I am in my last month being pregnant. My house isn’t completely clean anymore, mainly because it is now full of baby stuff. And I haven’t folded all of my clean laundry. But other than that, we made excellent progress. Amelia is being super nice and is coming into town this weekend to help me organize. I still have a list of stuff that I need to get before the baby arrives. I now have weekly appointments with my doctors and they haven’t said if they think she will come early or not. They don’t really tell me anything that I don’t already know. I just go in, get weighed and listen to the heartbeat. But next week, I have to get a Group B Strep test and I think they might do one other ultrasound. Either way, I just want to have my baby!!

And just a reminder, no one is allowed at the hospital when I am there. Mom and Dad can show up when she is born, but I don’t want any visitors. It’s a personal decision that I made and I don’t think people will understand, so I am just asking that people not show up. When I bring Aubry home, then everyone can show up.

Aubry is kicking me all the time, especially after and during my eating time. Which is all the time apparently. I am always so hungry now, I feel like a pig. I have solved my eating right problem. Even though I am still tired all the time, I get up earlier and make breakfast. I figure I can always take a nap in the afternoon, but I always need to eat breakfast in the morning. Well that’s about it with us, just getting the house ready and trying not to sleep all the time. Chris is waiting patiently to move back into our bedroom when the baby is born. Poor guy. He’s been living on the couch for quite awhile and I think he is ready to have a bed again. I will take pictures of the babies room when me and Amelia are done with it this weekend.

Unproductive...Again

Another week, another pair of pants I no longer fit into. I gotta tell ya, this getting more and more pregnant is messing with my self esteem. I know, I know, everyone gains a bunch of weight and looks a million times bigger. Well, the problem is, that I was trying to lose weight before I got pregnant and now it seems like I am moving backwards. Plus, I don’t have the shapely belly that marks a pregnant woman, so now I just look really overweight. Kinda depressing. It probably doesn’t help that I haven’t been eating the most healthy. I am just so tired in the mornings, that instead of making a good breakfast, I end up stopping and getting some instant breakfast, thus making me gain more weight. *sigh* I am at 33 weeks and I just can’t wait to get this thing over with.

Me and Chris had a very unproductive weekend. We were supposed to go register for the baby shower and for some reason, we didn’t. And we were supposed to take out the trash in the kitchen that has been accumulating from all the cleaning, but we didn’t manager that either. I have a theory about that. It was because on Saturday, when I had a lot of energy to do things in the morning, Chris was still recovering from work and decided to take a nap. Well, that left me with really nothing to do, thus throwing off my groove. Not his fault, but I can’t stay motivated!! Grhgghhh!! Then Sunday rolls around, and to be honest, I was super tired for some reason, and basically sat around reading and doing laundry. I didn’t clean as much either, mainly just focusing on the piles of laundry I still have left. If there is one thing in this world that I need help with, it’s my cleaning follow through. I think that today we will probably finish things up in the house at least in the taking out the trash that is literally taking over the kitchen.

Everyone seems really anxious at work lately. Mainly because we just got the depressing news that our wages are being cut yet again. It’s really hard because we have just started paying back student loans for Chris, and then when I am not working, it will be even harder to make ends meet. But we really need to start paying back all the money that we owe for Chris. I knew what I was getting into when I agreed to student loans, but it still sucks when you have to pay them back. At least the interest rates are reasonable. Nothing like a credit card with their 33 percent interest rate. Plus, if need be, we can adjust the payment plan if we can’t quite make the payments. I am slowly losing any kind of faith that the economy will bounce back. I wish that conference broad casted on the TV, but it wasn’t on a channel that we got, so I don’t know what the general authorities have said about it. The text isn’t out until Thursday, so I just have to wait. I didn’t think about it broadcasting over the internet, but we have been having trouble with our connection. The more I think about the economy and money situations, the more nervous I get. Beyond nervous. It does not help that I can tell things are going to get a little worse before anything starts going better. It’s just a feeling of foreboding hanging over everything.

Beyond the money and the cleaning, things are going pretty well at home. I feel better knowing that at some point we will be moving to a place that offers us more than what Vegas has. I look forward to spreading our wings and settling down somewhere with different seasons. I worry about my parents, and how they feel about us moving far away. But to be honest, Vegas is crushing us and our dreams. We can’t afford to live here, and we definitely aren’t happy here. Well, I am usually fine until about now when the temperature starts getting above 70 degrees, then I get a little cranky. We will miss everyone that we have met down here, and we will miss family, but it’s not like we won’t ever see them again. If there is one thing I love to do, it is travel. So wish us luck in the coming months, with a new baby and hopefully a new home.

Before & After

After
After


Before. Gross, I know.

Before.

So I hope you all enjoy these before and after pictures. This is actually the room that the baby will be occupying when she arrives, and since that could be soon, I decided that I should probably get off of my lazy butt and clean it. And since I have been saying I will clean it for about 3 months, I am happy to announce that I finally did. It all started with work. We had the end of our fiscal year this week, and since I really don't have to do anything for that, I was backup and helping other people get their stuff together. Not that I really minded, but I got a little stressed and then it was freaking hot in the office again, so I was even more cranky. So yesterday I am driving home, exhausted again, and I called Kelly to do something I don't really do. I complained about my marriage and home life. *gasp* I know. I had made a promise to myself never to complain about stuff that I am working on with my husband and to never make him to be the bad guy. I don't believe in husband bashing, because it's totally one sided and unfair. Well, I was whining because I felt like we were in a rut. I couldn't get motivated to clean, and without me motivated, he wasn't either. Well, I made a decision. I got home, didn't say anything about making him clean up, I got out my Zune so I could listen to it while I cleaned, and the next thing you know, Chris is up and about cleaning the living room while I cleaned the second bedroom. I hadn't even said anything! It was amazing. He was even done before me. (I got distracted when I was organizing my books=) I was so happy and I felt tons better about everything. It was so awesome! We even donated 4 bags of clothes to a donation center last night. I know, right, but we haven't cleaned out our closets since we got married. And so we have accumulated so much crap.

That was only two rooms in the house, so I am planning on tackling our bedroom and bathroom today or tomorrow. My back is really hurting me today so I don't know how bending or sitting on the floor will make me feel. It might be tomorrow or Saturday, but I think that with the way we are doing things, we will have a much cleaner house before the baby gets here. It hadn't been this bad before the pregnancy, but I was totally wiped out these past months. So the house had gone to crap. Well this is a really long blog about finally cleaning my gross house. Sorry and I hope I didn't put any of you off of your dinner!!

Happy Birthday Chris!!

Happy Birthday Chris!! He is now 29 and counting down the days til he’s thirty. Not really. When I asked him about turning the big 3 0 next year, he shrugged. So apparently no big deal for men. It makes things extremely difficult to tease him about if he doesn’t have a problem with something in the first place! Well, we went out to Red Lobster, which was awesome, and rented a movie, because I can’t sit through one in the theater. I got him the Dark Knight and some comic book stuff. I think he is going to see a movie today while I am at work and it’s his day off. I don’t mind though, cause I feel bad that I can’t sit through a movie without getting up and going to the bathroom every 45 minutes. But here is the picture of the cake that I made for him. He wanted a layer cake, and I thought I had the pans for it, but I couldn’t find it. So I made a bunt cake and then just frosted it. I think it turned out great and it tasted really yummy. And just for the record, Chris is the best husband anybody could ask for=) Love ya!

Besides the birthday, we had a pretty boring weekend. We missed the family potluck again, and I was kinda upset about it. Just sometimes, I can’t control how the pregnancy is going to affect me and one minute I am feeling super and twenty minutes later, I feel like crap. A bunch of my cousins were down and my other cousin was introducing his fiancé to the family and I missed it. I guess it could be worse, but I hate missing important family things.

So I am wearing a stupid wrist brace to try and control my carpel tunnel problem in my wrist. It wasn’t so bad a couple of weeks ago, but lately I can hardly type or write stuff down. I hate wearing the brace because it limits my wrist movement and all I want to do it move my wrist!! It’s like as soon as I can’t do something, I need to do it. Oh well, 8 weeks officially before Aubry gets here so not much longer. I am still super nervous about everything, but I will have lots of help when she gets here. But everyone cross your fingers that Chris will find a job in Boise soon so we can move and maybe buy a house in the near future. It’s so weird, wanting to buy a house and settle down. I still feel a little bit immature about it all. But all I know is that I want a house so I can plant a garden. I want to grow useless vegetables that I really don’t like to eat, but are good for me. Like turnips and beets. Silly I know, but it’s just one of those weird things that I really want.

A Time to Love and Laugh...

With the arrival of baby almost upon us, things are slowly coming together. Although my house still isn't clean at all, I have hope for the near future. In fact, during my bath, I starting cleaning up my tub. I am hoping to get the second bedroom at least a little more organized in the coming weeks. Everytime I go in there, I organize just a little bit. Some things are more important than a clean house. Like spending time with Chris. I mean, we are always home together, we don't have other obligations right now, but sometimes it seems like we are both in the same room, but not in the same space. That's why lately, we have been making more of an effort to just be together. Even if we are both occupied with something, like reading or the computer, every couple of minutes we acknowledge each others presence. And sometimes, we just lay in bed and talk about the silliest things that have nothing to do with anything. Like what will happen when our cats finally die, will they become rugs or will we have them stuffed. Just nonsense like that=)
I am certainly going to miss all of the one on one time we have with each other. It doesn't seem fair that I spent so much time trying to find someone to spend the rest of my life with, that I won't be able to just be with them for much longer. Pretty soon, we will have another life entwined with ours and the something special that we have with each other, will change. I am not saying that's good or bad, I just know I will miss the time when it is just us. I am afraid that he will feel neglected when the baby comes, or that I will get so caught up that I forget that I am not just a mom, but someone's wife and best friend as well. How easy it will be to lose touch with each other. I don't want that to happen. For one thing, the whole pregnancy is his fault to begin with (that's my story and I'm sticking to it=) and another thing is that we can't put our marriage on hold to raise kids and then expect to pick up everything to be together when the kids finally leave. I don't want to be that couple who once the kids leave the house, suddenly have nothing in common with each other. *Shudder* That picture freaks me out more that anything.
I know that having kids is the next great adventure, but if there is one thing I have learned, is that there are exceptions to every rule and nobody is exactly the same. So while I look forward to raising and teaching a new baby everything I know about books and video games, I look back with longing for the times just spent with Chris. Shopping at 1 am because we forgot milk, or going to pick up some random item at all hours of the night. Or just wondering around at the mall together, wondering how places like the Hello Kitty store stay in business.
Maybe I wasn't ready to start having kids yet, but it looks like I really don't get a choice in the matter now. Somehow, this is all someone else's fault and if things fall apart, rest assured "somebody" will be getting a very strongly worded letter from me=) But for all of you young parents our there, don't forget that there is a reason you have kids and don't forget to spend and devote a little focus to that special reason who snores every night next to you=)

So Many Things...

Wow, another week, another pound or two. Officially, I am at 31 weeks and counting. Still fit into my work pants and honestly, I don't really look pregnant. Just overweight. I can't tell if that is a good or bad thing at this point. My body is still doing some crazy things. Like hurting me everytime I try and sit or stand up. And sometimes, my leg just gives out. Kinda weird, but apparently thats okay. My biggest worry at this point, is how dirty my house is. I just can't seem to find the energy to clean it. I am hoping that I can pay my little sister to come over and help motivate me. I just need someone with my same cleaning ability to help me. Then, maybe I will feel a little less stressed about everything. I just want to set up the babies room and get everything organized before hand. I am terrified that she will come early and I will be caught unaware. Kelly is telling me that things really weren't that bad and that everything will be fine. Cross your fingers for me. Everything seems fine today except she is kicking me every few minutes to make a point. Hopefully, at my doctors appointment tomorrow, they will reassure me that everything is normal. And maybe pity my allergies and give me something a little stronger to deal with them.
Oh I passed my glucose test so I don't have gestational diabetes. Hooray for small miracles.

My F Bomb

I did it again. I dropped the F bomb in a fit of anger. Most of you who know me pretty well, know that I have always had trouble with swearing. Especially when I am pissed. Well currently my problem, is that all of the stupid mulberry trees are blooming and for some reason, 75 degrees and rising is okay in an office. No, it's really not. But since I am pregnant, apparently that means my opinion doesn't count because I will naturally be hotter when I am with child. Well, screw that. Anyone can tell you, that I am always hot, pregnant or not! So why should my opinion matter less? I am so frustrated about it. I have to wait until someone else mentions that they are hot, which no one does, before something happens. Normally, I don't get this much bent out of shape about it, but I can't run my fan because I already can't breathe from the damn pollen, that having a fan under my desk to blow the dust in my face is making me miserable. So here I sit, hot, sweaty and unable to breathe. You wonder why I might be a little testy.

Apparently it is only going to get worse. Which is bad for people who might get in my way. I am trying so hard to be a better person, more patient and understanding, because I honestly feel that is my hardest problem. Being patient. And then I worry about having a small child who demands my patience and me falling way below the mark. I hope that in the coming months, when Vegas slowly descends closer to Hell, that everyone can be a little patient with me and I get hotter, fatter and more cranky. But still, could the pollen here be any worse?

Finances

Just a reminder to everyone. It's tax season and along with reconciling your taxes and expenses I think it is also that time of year to check your credit score and information with Experian or any of the other two Credit Companies. They do offer a free score I believe once a year or you can purchase a package and look at it more often. There is a law in place that ensures you a yearly free report so now is a good time to take a look. Especially with the economy, it is important to know and understand your score and make sure that you are not a victim of identity theft. I checked mine, and it was really easy. So please check and make sure that your identity and credit score are safe, as well as let this be information to use in this bad economy. Have a great day!